It feels weird to change the profession. It feels weirder that I never flaunted the tag. After all, was it not the big dream?
I don’t know. Being a doctor is a huge responsibility. People assume you are intelligent and well updated about the current medical advancements. People ask for your opinions. People send their children to get some inspiration from you. Patients look up to you, expecting miracles. Can you deliver? It is limited by a whole lot of variables. But you have to pretend to make your magic work.
I am going to miss it all. Well, I had decided to shift the profession a long time back. But now, when I am literally on the brink, I look back and reflect. Have I been a good doctor? I don’t know. Have I helped save lives? I guess I have, with the utmost restrained passivity with which I could have possibly done that. Over all, an average, i would sum it up to say,I did not do justice to the profession.
But it has taught me a lot. At a relatively young age, I have started taking some significant decisions. It has taught me how to talk with someone, how to behave with dignity, and most importantly, how to be a good human being.
People ask me, why I decide to leave the profession. I don’t have one possible answer. The only reason I can give, which might be the closest to the truth, is that I did not think the way a doctor is supposed to think. Medicine defies logic many a times. And logic ruled me. I need an answer to the ‘why’ which is answered by a fancy word ‘idiopathic’ in the fraternity.
May be I wasted a medical seat. Maybe I did not end up to be what my parents expected me to be. All I can say is, I am not done yet. It would be extremely vain to say, that I am destined for greatness. But I am definitely destined for something which was not this. So, without further ado, I bid farewell to being a doctor. some day, if things are different, who knows, we will cross paths again! till then, Adios ! it was a good run!
Hmm, in a certain sense, your changing professions is idiopathic to you. Certainly not bad, and we all know a great profession awaits you on the other side of this goodbye. Now of course, you have been a good doctor, and once a doctor, always a doctor. We'll still put you in the difficult position of translating medical jargon into words we understand and advising us with our medical situations. So in a certain sense, we won't really allow you to change the profession :P I know, you could just claim unfamiliarity with latest developments, but remember: telling people I'm not an expert at computer virology has never had me escape fixing their broken windows :P
ReplyDeleteAnyways, good luck! And keep writing, although there may be other things keeping you busy after the 20th.
Over the last few years I have realized how important it is to do something tat makes u happy even if it isnt really the 'in' thing or might not fetch u 'enough' money or defies the usually trodden path tat the society expects u to take.
ReplyDeleteSo all Ifs and Buts apart...Im extremely happy tat u r doing what makes u happy :)
nothing in life is wasted. wat u ve done is a step in understanding wat everyone of us strive to find out. edison failed more than 400 times to make a light bulb. but he did not fail he found out more than 400 materials dat does not work well in a light bulb.
ReplyDeleteSo let bygones be bygones. u have chosen a path dats wat is important. all the best and bon voyage
Thank you all guys!
ReplyDeletewat you have done needed guts and grit. good for you . just follow your heart and you ll always be right. all the very best in all that you do .
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